Last week someone commented on one of my posts about a Worldwide Candle Lighting. Thank-you Anonymous. I got the information for the gathering in Saskatoon, but was feeling anxious about attending. I wanted others to see Tripp's picture. I wanted to stand with people who know what it is like. But I didn't. In the end, my nerves told me it wasn't the right thing for me this year. Instead, I honoured Tripp by lighting a candle at his tree in North Hills Park. I made an ice candle holder out of a mold my mom got me a few years ago from Lee Valley.
I wanted to leave the candle going all night so that people out for a walk would see Tripp's light. We got about 1/2 a block away and I couldn't do it. There is no way a fire would have started, but I couldn't leave it unattended. I dropped Calder and Hugh off at the house and headed back. As I approached the park I started crying. I could see the light and it looked beautiful. I wanted other people to see it too. I might have been gone all of two minutes and when I pulled into the back alley behind the park I could see a girl was standing at Tripp's tree looking a his light. I walked over and said hello. I gently blew out the candle and lifted it out of the holder.
I decided to leave the holder at Tripp's tree. I may just get the urge some other evening to walk over and shine a bit of light on North Hills Park (although not unattended).
When I got home I lit the candle on our front step instead.their wall. Strangers will read his name and think of us.