Mother's Day
I saw this on Facebook.
Mother's Day is a hard day for me, but there are lots of people that find this day hard. I read THIS article on Huffington Post that speaks volumes.
Hugh planned an amazing day for me. I got to decide everything, which is exactly the way I like it. We stayed close to home, got outdoors for some ball and had a cuddle on Tripp's bench. Albeit a quick cuddle. Boone wanted to explore and was not happy to be contained to my lap. Calder did a great job of cooperating during those few seconds. . .
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I also got some amazing gifts. Hugh had the boys create a card for me and the boys' daycare helped Calder and Boone put together one for me as well. They were perfect.
A few months ago at counselling, my counsellor suggested that I could imagine there was a long, long cord that connects my heart directly to Tripp's. I picture this cord to be gold. . . it is delicate, yet strong. She said that when I find myself starting to miss Tripp, rather than allow myself to go to a sad place, to try giving the cord a little tug. She said that I can pull Tripp a bit closer to me when I need him and even wrap him up in my arms if I so desire. I find myself giving his cord a little tug on a daily basis. Sometimes I tug with tears in my eyes, but not always. I am working towards connecting Tripp to happy things. I don't always want to be sad when I think of him. Yesterday, I gave him a little tug as Hugh, Calder, Boone and I walked to the park. The idea of breathing in the same air that he breathed makes my chest fill with more than just oxygen. As we sat on his bench, I pulled him especially close.
Happy Mother's Day.
Thought of you often yesterday, I'm glad you found some peace. Love you.
ReplyDeletewhat you wrote about the cord brought tears to my eyes.
ReplyDeleteI hope you had a wonderful day and it looks like you were spoiled by your boys.
Love the cord. And was thinking about you all weekend. It's a tough one! :(
ReplyDeleteThanks so much, ladies. I really appreciate the thoughts.
ReplyDeleteI found this Mother's Day tough, but not as tough as last year. We visited Cohen and Piper picked out a single blue rose for him - so fitting! A friend of mine lost her mom this week, so I spent lots of time comforting her - I truly feel that my experience with Cohen has taught me how to be a better, compassionate and understanding friend. I will forever be thankful to him for this gift he has given me.
ReplyDeleteHappy belated Mother's Day.
Jordan - This was so beautiful. You made me cry! I hope your day turned out wonderful.
ReplyDeleteJordan,
ReplyDeleteThis is beautiful! Glad you had a nice day! Love your husband's sweet words! Hugs!