I Lost My Mind
Today, I lost my mind at Calder's nap time. He started to hit me when I picked him up to take him to bed. This happens on a daily basis at nap time and bedtime, but Hugh is usually here to intervene. Normally, Hugh will pull Calder away from me and we both talk to him sternly about his behavior. If Calder continues to raise his arm to hit me, he goes to bed without any hugs from daddy. Today, Hugh wasn't here and when the hitting started I felt trapped. I could have just thrown Calder in the crib and I did think about doing this, but I needed to change his diaper. After the 2nd whap, I put him at arms reach. He then whapped me 2 more times. This is when I lost my mind. I hit him back. Not hard, of course, but nevertheless, I hit him. Calder then hit me again and in a moment of insanity, a hitting frenzy started. We went on, blow for blow, for about 5 hits. At this point, I snapped to my senses and started crying. I was upset I...